Terra cotta soldiers
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by J. Loh
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a dead cat bounced once or twice8 N, X' V9 f; j" f
a dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty
4 Q4 B' y" o7 p. K4 u; C. ^5 f( ~3 x; twho dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
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and only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes : M7 X8 C5 b" J* x
like a shapeless shadow of wind- W! y, Q6 f! o
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such vivid affairs one could not tell
2 R, y. c& d. m7 kin the midnight silence
$ S. H$ u7 R V1 ]) gand I knew nothing about the basement# M) _& B. {8 e+ Y5 [/ q0 q) ]% p
where rats and cockroaches fought among themselves$ I/ l" w! S) d D
I was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around, y' A4 n$ c! Y* B$ ^
as a black swan or a white cat
/ b% w0 J7 Y) o6 C; K: \$ S, kwhile you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.
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Why not rats, I asked.3 O/ b# D" q4 J* H* O/ ?! ^
one inch seemed one million miles away/ S$ c6 L' ]3 `" f. E' D I3 Q0 e
with two worlds apart
- a6 r8 L4 Y) m1 ?8 i \ l2 gthere was something inside me I couldn't reach$ C% s" H# a, s# ?/ L5 e
"tear me into pieces", you said,5 k4 U5 Z6 [. n& P+ r6 v1 O
"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see 7 J3 V/ y: e9 Q! n) Q2 b1 d% c8 g
in pieces of me"
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I was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being% m5 y& ?1 h8 B4 |2 y& w
the world surrounding me
5 D. o& e ?4 t! R# l0 _; B Xwas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
7 `9 j+ n9 W, l0 m. _3 Dfrom a pigeon's wing-tip
( B& H* ~& u. ^+ f vtime turned into a grain of sand --% }0 D7 \+ Z6 I# `, y) a$ P+ W! a
-- the sole truth of the universe
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with sore and pain in my back
5 ~! r; ]+ U. I+ E- HI couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me $ _; o5 ?1 s( S! W
to the silent tides7 t: _' ?% `* o
I couldn't touch the shades of solidity
& U4 t3 e# i: {2 a- k/ B# B- y3 r( uwhile my door was cracking --* q6 F w$ U! t
the boundary of myself was disappearing
% m3 V* f1 r G8 B) T7 ksomething completely foreign was reshaping9 V! V3 e2 E* W0 \+ u+ X
I felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me : h: V( u4 j6 B# j% m6 [9 @+ M' |) G
and shed on the cracked floor
$ B" ~8 d+ z' A2 G+ Uwhen curtains were still tightly shut( j! i' [4 c. l* S
+ E- V, k7 n% t! mGapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain0 g: s( ]7 E" {% m5 P. @, F
I felt the dead man moving out of my body
; m# S( g' X5 @7 C7 U w5 jand the grain of sand was free-flying
$ s3 |3 q$ g; |3 {* c4 x/ M, `in the pouring rain4 m7 w2 `, v, S" u7 b- Z$ x+ j
love or being loved was a state of quantum
! i8 T& X6 q6 K$ v7 l! D: Y-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --8 Z4 c2 H, i! m: {
when a terra cotta soldier was walking 2 m2 e8 D5 \! ]
in the mighty wind.
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Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ
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6 a z" L% Y" S7 n附中文翻译：
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《兵马俑》
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作者、翻译：莫笑愚5 R( b- g. [# s; ?, X1 V7 {
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一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次) O0 U: ?" [$ i* x7 H: O
一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士
6 c$ n& V1 @" R" Y8 f9 t* b; e$ z5 N他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原* K4 ?1 P7 m( f, _ O
攀上了长城. Z: V' }$ |4 c9 u. w7 P
结果却发现自己变成鬼魂5 j5 u8 ^; d. q9 ~3 R L
仿佛草丛中无形的风影
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/ j# z7 {! T8 i3 a! R人们在午夜的寂静中
# E& s) i. l, f( h/ ?1 r& Y' k分不清这些生动的事物% u$ H9 M& E, C3 ^
而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知
- [$ o- C; T1 T$ v5 T, W老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗* f" }8 E4 H$ H7 x5 w9 v" l! f
我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样
9 n6 E1 M8 B) K/ ^行走或弹跳
, G: n" U8 @% ?: c- M而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。
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' ?! x+ Z) P! A" A为什么不是老鼠，我说。
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两个世界天差地别
" Y$ ], k7 k4 t- Q2 l1 P& K: z一些东西在我心中，我无法触及 p3 G7 ^) Z% R j+ ?4 Q# z
“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，
' A& S' k2 l9 Y0 r8 E& ]( V1 I“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的: l# V3 V$ @1 `
或真实的”) X* [1 H8 u* x: z
1 q$ S5 W. q. N$ `# H- K9 \/ u我活着，无法如众生行走
8 b: c8 C7 T6 a5 n) {我周围的世界
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滴落
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—— 这宇宙的唯一真理
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我腰酸背痛
7 K9 A+ A$ ]9 ^0 l$ C5 N4 W无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片4 t; g T( x3 y0 w
带进静默的潮汐 ——6 [6 C4 {4 B( x" |3 O7 Q
我无法触碰这坚固的阴影- N+ r" j& l8 P$ @0 i" m
而我的门在开裂6 p) k0 p4 T6 B% o% c
我自身的边界在消失
/ z4 C5 i( _7 [0 k& h9 _0 K一些完全陌生的事物在重塑3 o6 I6 B& ?( k3 p/ b
我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心
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4 t% n& k3 O8 B8 J当窗帘依然紧闭" N% J9 W0 N9 D. ~0 w4 I1 B; t
2 q, {# t9 c7 J+ W4 ?# R4 L撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着
) q1 d6 y2 q* `$ x' z) S7 G3 ^我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内* W+ e7 V, a0 Y
而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中
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爱或被爱都是量子状态$ W- m& {4 {1 V0 Y) n7 X8 M- \$ g1 M4 x
—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
+ ?; Y# f0 V. v7 @$ B当兵马俑的士兵
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