【原创英文诗首发】兵马俑

莫笑愚

Terra cotta soldiers


by J. Loh
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1 K- M+ o6 U3 |8 n) h+ V8 ja dead cat bounced once or twice
) G1 V6 Z' i, o8 `- F$ b- q# K" Ka dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty
who dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
northern wasteland
and only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes
like a shapeless shadow of wind
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such vivid affairs one could not tell
in the midnight silence
and I knew nothing about the basement
$ B' a/ X8 m$ z9 j$ c7 Ewhere rats and cockroaches fought among themselves
# i/ |9 t9 [& Y+ vI was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around
) ^8 r+ _( C% |: t; `% h7 mas a black swan or a white cat
while you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.
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' D- k, z3 G# [Why not rats, I asked.
one inch seemed one million miles away
with two worlds apart
there was something inside me I couldn't reach
$ p- k4 L( Z6 s! t"tear me into pieces", you said,
"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see
in pieces of me"

3 T6 a6 P9 Q+ w% _% M- l9 z; lI was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being
% @" q3 T9 q" R" E% j  gthe world surrounding me
- ~! B; ?' |8 v/ R& v7 n8 e  F% awas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
9 x6 a, W' |1 k3 A+ [# w- ?) ]' Tfrom a pigeon's wing-tip
time turned into a grain of sand --
0 O0 A# T& _; w3 s/ Z- L( J-- the sole truth of the universe
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with sore and pain in my back
I couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me
to the silent tides
I couldn't touch the shades of solidity
while my door was cracking --
the boundary of myself was disappearing
something completely foreign was reshaping
4 ~1 V2 l: i& T  D3 n% dI felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me
- m7 g" C2 s! {and shed on the cracked floor
when curtains were still tightly shut

Gapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain
I felt the dead man moving out of my body
8 `/ t( ], _1 @* Yand the grain of sand was free-flying
in the pouring rain
# J/ l# f5 C7 g3 u3 N$ ]( `, Plove or being loved was a state of quantum
-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --
3 f/ v* [! ^! c0 c7 f: P8 w  K: ~0 |when a terra cotta soldier was walking
( H' }) ?! l( @8 tin the mighty wind.

Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ
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附中文翻译：

《兵马俑》
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作者、翻译：莫笑愚
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7 {" t! D2 S1 N9 ~) l一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次
一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士
- M6 x  H$ G' z+ h6 n% u$ f他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原
攀上了长城
结果却发现自己变成鬼魂
4 R; u2 [9 N2 ]1 Y3 g仿佛草丛中无形的风影

* n' J. \- _/ X3 c8 f5 a人们在午夜的寂静中
分不清这些生动的事物
* ?6 ~( ?1 z, h3 ~6 x而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知
老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗
5 S6 s7 Y! i- Y3 C; P+ t我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样
& X$ J2 Q( X. i% m5 t2 l9 |行走或弹跳
而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。
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为什么不是老鼠，我说。
! f6 Y* }" v' @( Q一英寸似乎相隔百万英里
两个世界天差地别
1 w( P8 U/ T" `" C8 z1 h" O一些东西在我心中，我无法触及
“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，
“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的
或真实的”

" l5 c* L) \: e我活着，无法如众生行走
3 k0 U0 T) Y$ I" g2 m3 C我周围的世界
$ J  z0 A4 N7 M, T: \# A是一小滴雨水，从鸽子的翅尖
滴落
时间成为一粒沙 ——
5 F0 d8 `3 ?' h+ u3 z6 v; [—— 这宇宙的唯一真理

0 L  P8 j. U/ e4 I我腰酸背痛
无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片
% V" ^; o2 Z  Q$ Q* t# {) a3 G带进静默的潮汐 ——
$ \: p+ j* j8 B我无法触碰这坚固的阴影
而我的门在开裂
2 C1 [2 t" Z$ w& J我自身的边界在消失
4 q) X9 z* w* _; k$ w一些完全陌生的事物在重塑
: }1 K% W$ ~0 H2 X9 x我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心
' ]5 R1 t, y) j洒在破裂的地板上
9 p3 q' K! d$ m4 r) m0 A( Y1 L" J当窗帘依然紧闭
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撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着
我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内
而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中
自由飞行——
% e2 O+ A" c' \$ l* ^' N3 W爱或被爱都是量子状态
/ G: g. Y, k# G2 L! n- L—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
9 A1 X" D5 _# f0 y: ]$ ?当兵马俑的士兵
行走，在迅疾的风中。
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2015-9-6于北京

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问好！！

莫笑愚

美好语感 发表于 2015-9-7 08:21
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问候亲，秋晨快乐！

大荒

心赏！！！

莫笑愚

大荒 发表于 2015-9-7 22:53
心赏！！！

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谢谢大荒提读心赏！

大荒

莫笑愚 发表于 2015-9-10 20:39
7 e0 F/ F, i6 p2 p谢谢大荒提读心赏！