Terra cotta soldiers: }$ `* V* J5 T" d7 Q1 y. n
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by J. Loh
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1 }; Q: u8 S+ ` }& Ya dead cat bounced once or twice
$ j j9 ` R" X. R- Q- ~" x( Da dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty2 T1 L7 i4 ~# v& J6 a% _" V; K4 q
who dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
P/ R. g/ g% a- @% onorthern wasteland ' k- x. [# q2 ]& N( _8 ~, p4 e1 g
and only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes
. U8 g7 V% h0 B$ k( w2 r, llike a shapeless shadow of wind4 B3 U0 ?2 o4 Z) e: T
/ d; v. D) j, \! ?such vivid affairs one could not tell0 b4 ]" f0 |3 U/ k7 r. s6 t M
in the midnight silence& z# L* b6 X7 ~6 h, W+ ^
and I knew nothing about the basement
5 y! A. O$ x9 P& Mwhere rats and cockroaches fought among themselves o4 [" h; n1 |2 j
I was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around
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while you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.% @) V/ \" r- x8 v3 |" F* F( R
5 E& {' ]! ]: B; X/ ?2 a, M8 GWhy not rats, I asked./ F/ b, N& P9 ?# J
one inch seemed one million miles away$ D, r: _+ @* _, z+ N0 r- @* c7 R1 y3 w8 _
with two worlds apart- H$ f$ T, x1 e" l
there was something inside me I couldn't reach
- J8 K4 @$ s8 d" F"tear me into pieces", you said," R3 d( L* b1 G, B: `- O ?% _3 J
"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see 0 N, m8 P4 w4 Q' _
in pieces of me": K2 z' J/ C# F5 u! j
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I was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being3 L& ?8 y; _8 L: k% I
the world surrounding me
! R) s/ s- Q# F E, C4 X- Iwas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
+ h# ]+ [4 C1 o' h& F+ Ifrom a pigeon's wing-tip+ f z! b; T3 z
time turned into a grain of sand --6 `) Y1 E' G: z
-- the sole truth of the universe# k, \( [$ j) f
5 H2 i0 D, n" q+ v, W) Xwith sore and pain in my back- A9 m. ^3 S* u! ^
I couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me
2 R2 s$ ]' h; I+ W0 e, }to the silent tides$ k3 p9 \. K6 b+ A: S% k3 e" T
I couldn't touch the shades of solidity* \/ c8 S* [' U8 i
while my door was cracking --( K: a/ O* h' X
the boundary of myself was disappearing
: V2 P$ V0 |; |& U* fsomething completely foreign was reshaping
; W8 d \( x/ BI felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me
# x6 z9 K: a' ]and shed on the cracked floor
0 Y2 P& c f9 h5 Q! B1 Uwhen curtains were still tightly shut3 n u9 W& {% K3 {1 Q
( H: X5 q3 s! c7 D) W' CGapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain
8 T7 j" H% G9 d& r- V+ ^I felt the dead man moving out of my body; c; O5 F% |. X
and the grain of sand was free-flying4 U/ }/ M* L9 z: X+ Z4 R0 G
in the pouring rain7 m. C6 U4 S, C+ p/ L+ K
love or being loved was a state of quantum 5 C: K9 V+ {$ u. s/ ]) u! N
-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --) z" v" D- y! V( b# q
when a terra cotta soldier was walking % z+ Q: o! n3 W9 d
in the mighty wind.
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+ B2 B& K0 k% _' ~7 \Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ$ |* U3 R" H: S+ A+ o- ?: s
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附中文翻译：
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《兵马俑》' W9 ?+ r5 G. y: r
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作者、翻译：莫笑愚
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一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次9 q! H3 _6 h8 A2 [+ X# V- x
一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士# C# D& E3 k1 y) {/ b2 l% \% X
他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原8 l, N5 z* k ]7 L8 H) q/ ~3 ^
攀上了长城
" R# M8 @9 o7 ~+ U, V结果却发现自己变成鬼魂
" ]' [5 x5 q6 j% f. q4 s6 G仿佛草丛中无形的风影. p. Z, H; ^8 y0 X' b8 j
! d) }; e4 ?; l8 g& v6 f人们在午夜的寂静中
1 i6 s# ]: i% A6 c8 U/ a# S2 p2 ^分不清这些生动的事物
" p# l+ t# q( ?2 b而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知
7 F0 ]' x8 Q) @老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗9 z" ~% w' z- a* F3 H! D' \! A
我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样
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而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。& o0 Y6 W% X, W3 _5 d' A8 ^! m
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为什么不是老鼠，我说。
( D* r5 l( ^) G8 u9 I' P一英寸似乎相隔百万英里
/ W8 ]0 c0 E& b; W5 s6 X0 f两个世界天差地别
. Q0 f7 S0 o N# T2 [; Y% \一些东西在我心中，我无法触及6 k+ V! i1 i* }% @! e# W1 H1 l
“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，+ c' j7 [: G1 d6 x( O- O* b
“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的" g7 X7 X' V5 B) i
或真实的”* V' V$ g ^2 G8 R* A. E( N0 @+ I
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我活着，无法如众生行走) W% ]1 h+ q/ z
我周围的世界
, i8 p4 \# t* Y9 h9 f- [1 ?# L6 _是一小滴雨水，从鸽子的翅尖
/ @3 c8 }: \* J滴落
6 ]% v' d1 o! A4 a, L4 y3 |时间成为一粒沙 ——
9 P5 ~) G% s! ~+ q6 M5 G& a—— 这宇宙的唯一真理
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我腰酸背痛
) f( L6 V, I4 T. e9 D, U0 K' U5 B1 u无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片
1 z+ [3 ?1 v/ p8 j) i7 m0 v带进静默的潮汐 ——4 n1 h8 _3 R: |3 I- g3 T
我无法触碰这坚固的阴影
' m# {0 s% G/ w9 o0 R/ g而我的门在开裂' q. }0 U6 X3 n# {. Z3 U
我自身的边界在消失
! m6 G0 u* ]3 S8 s一些完全陌生的事物在重塑$ G) ?1 R0 a6 B x3 O* a( a
我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心
5 k2 H S A8 b0 z洒在破裂的地板上
; }" n. n, T" e2 U9 U. W' c当窗帘依然紧闭
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7 v S( E; D) k D撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着6 m( ^1 p( O: A1 Q7 A( u w! L
我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内: @* |* D; d+ k- f) Z
而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中
@9 v+ U, Q/ O6 K自由飞行—— U. l, ^% A, ]& x* Y, U( [
爱或被爱都是量子状态
# ?7 w8 l# r' |; E& ~—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
5 h W$ m7 ~& m( D9 l( V9 r( _当兵马俑的士兵
. j! R' d% k6 ?行走，在迅疾的风中。( l9 n7 v( U1 E: x2 Q
0 {0 E6 z/ ]/ Y2015-9-6于北京 |
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