【原创英文诗首发】兵马俑

莫笑愚

Terra cotta soldiers
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2 c  y7 Q+ X8 n& z& p4 _" ra dead cat bounced once or twice
& W8 X( m4 ^: O9 U& _a dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty
who dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
northern wasteland
0 U9 x1 x' f: c, d% }/ r& b7 X! B& sand only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes
  T2 R2 o' G' P* r; S! o% ~% [  h  z+ f  @like a shapeless shadow of wind
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' s9 ~. K1 `6 k! b+ O5 q3 rsuch vivid affairs one could not tell
. g% K1 i- \6 d6 n$ yin the midnight silence
and I knew nothing about the basement
* h+ i4 e; F! w. H' _where rats and cockroaches fought among themselves
I was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around
as a black swan or a white cat
while you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.

0 n7 t" N; b! `& vWhy not rats, I asked.
one inch seemed one million miles away
with two worlds apart
there was something inside me I couldn't reach
4 D! a& m( x  T1 P, I"tear me into pieces", you said,
+ K! Z/ X" j' F6 D"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see
in pieces of me"

I was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being
the world surrounding me
# t4 `, V; U1 pwas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
/ {- V  T; s" v& Efrom a pigeon's wing-tip
0 e( f# A8 G, @) Ptime turned into a grain of sand --
# e4 T7 C' x: q, ^4 a, Z- x-- the sole truth of the universe
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with sore and pain in my back
4 O: {- i  c# L' M0 gI couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me
2 @: Z. \9 J9 m7 Y, cto the silent tides
I couldn't touch the shades of solidity
while my door was cracking --
+ E/ N) V5 {  K- othe boundary of myself was disappearing
2 P% x4 d! ?( [* w4 @$ t1 k! usomething completely foreign was reshaping
I felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me
3 N/ Y  j* r: I" land shed on the cracked floor
8 Y* `, p! G" ], K2 z  C$ u9 nwhen curtains were still tightly shut
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Gapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain
I felt the dead man moving out of my body
and the grain of sand was free-flying
in the pouring rain
love or being loved was a state of quantum
6 P5 f" ~8 W6 I! F4 l-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --
when a terra cotta soldier was walking
" e- }  I" k4 min the mighty wind.
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Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ

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9 v4 ~, S; v2 z' P+ I附中文翻译：

《兵马俑》

作者、翻译：莫笑愚
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) a2 O& c/ |! r1 S" p* r一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次
一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士
& ^; K2 u/ i& D% {9 s0 N1 d: ], {他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原
# b2 `1 {5 W' Q  ]9 L" P* b6 F攀上了长城
结果却发现自己变成鬼魂
仿佛草丛中无形的风影

8 a2 E5 ^, c2 R8 d# F/ i人们在午夜的寂静中
" Q% D+ S3 M7 m  B9 r4 ~1 ^分不清这些生动的事物
- U% Z; [; Z: m# Q, w& L) Q而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知
# B4 u  L) g1 o5 r& M! x老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗
我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样
7 C; z  W. ~( S  l7 P: S2 v行走或弹跳
而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。

8 o4 y) U( i* z6 l. T为什么不是老鼠，我说。
一英寸似乎相隔百万英里
) C+ m& U6 }+ X* ]) B7 V两个世界天差地别
+ O7 ~& h& }  u' S+ r一些东西在我心中，我无法触及
# y+ k3 c) h8 v% a/ ^( ~$ Q“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，
7 j7 X$ p, r5 s; H. ^1 x“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的
或真实的”

" q& m1 D. j* _  G7 {) g0 P- X我活着，无法如众生行走
我周围的世界
是一小滴雨水，从鸽子的翅尖
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时间成为一粒沙 ——
—— 这宇宙的唯一真理

我腰酸背痛
无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片
. X2 F' c, A( s5 J0 @带进静默的潮汐 ——
我无法触碰这坚固的阴影
而我的门在开裂
1 ^/ {' T& V" N8 s3 a9 A我自身的边界在消失
9 Q$ N$ \8 w1 [# N) N. P5 R4 _一些完全陌生的事物在重塑
# n- S5 |1 u( ?1 V$ r8 b9 k我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心
0 J' O& d6 v3 J1 H/ {2 G: Z7 J洒在破裂的地板上
当窗帘依然紧闭
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撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着
* e3 d2 C5 G/ p; r# ?+ j; U% |# E我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内
8 e1 N* i8 F8 L  k) R& `1 ^/ |: {% p而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中
自由飞行——
爱或被爱都是量子状态
) g% j2 r) R1 O& J—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
  [3 G* [8 J1 a8 \6 E0 d9 f# O+ P当兵马俑的士兵
行走，在迅疾的风中。
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美好语感

问好！！

莫笑愚

美好语感 发表于 2015-9-7 08:21
问好！！

. h- Y7 A. v  A6 a+ b8 ^问候亲，秋晨快乐！

大荒

心赏！！！

莫笑愚

大荒 发表于 2015-9-7 22:53
心赏！！！

谢谢大荒提读心赏！

大荒

莫笑愚 发表于 2015-9-10 20:39
0 e9 t9 L+ t6 K+ B谢谢大荒提读心赏！