Terra cotta soldiers- Q' z7 D9 C% r8 e" |
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by J. Loh
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a dead cat bounced once or twice6 l( b' _* l# F2 i4 g
a dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty
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and only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes
$ F& e |. p/ Q$ `6 y, Z! Llike a shapeless shadow of wind
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9 W, C, P1 _, o# j( \$ d) ]such vivid affairs one could not tell* Y7 l7 ~0 L& X6 e; N. l
in the midnight silence
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I- i I6 V) Fwhere rats and cockroaches fought among themselves/ \: C3 d$ F/ U0 o! i
I was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around5 D6 R4 t$ ` Y* R
as a black swan or a white cat+ i" d: c ^5 A! A, q
while you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.2 G4 ^# i9 `1 J( i: n) l
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Why not rats, I asked., r6 A' O {+ O
one inch seemed one million miles away
( F8 t! i" W6 H4 xwith two worlds apart3 q( g& `$ d$ e4 _
there was something inside me I couldn't reach
1 c" t f* L' R* l- K"tear me into pieces", you said,4 f% b& j/ O$ i% I2 A5 M
"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see & q/ N/ x/ _6 c
in pieces of me"- a& W# U/ J0 L# q2 ~7 r) L
8 Y6 {1 s e* F2 x+ ~I was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being
6 }+ x# \* V. I/ Jthe world surrounding me
. k/ x1 R' |" h+ I' gwas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
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time turned into a grain of sand --% j/ o! ^- p e* E
-- the sole truth of the universe
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with sore and pain in my back. E( U- O8 v) Y" ~, N) o
I couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me ; {% [9 c; C9 w1 |9 P
to the silent tides
8 A( I/ e1 W6 n }2 K8 Q3 h9 m' BI couldn't touch the shades of solidity
, [* H. f' i1 c$ _$ l% u5 lwhile my door was cracking --6 ?3 T' G; b" z9 H. M. L
the boundary of myself was disappearing! G2 E4 P) z( w
something completely foreign was reshaping J6 D2 N3 n; O. ?, F8 W5 |4 U
I felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me ; |3 l0 @3 Z! @. [
and shed on the cracked floor
H* U; N, T6 J6 x* cwhen curtains were still tightly shut3 K9 _! [+ d6 |8 _$ R
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Gapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain, k( l% ]. K2 R! s7 T: P
I felt the dead man moving out of my body
- @# ?! @: M; t1 O9 o& nand the grain of sand was free-flying! ]" ]# ]7 e* L
in the pouring rain& _* c; t& X& n+ `; y o( W
love or being loved was a state of quantum % F, Y2 [, U! |# t5 T5 _
-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --
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Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ5 J3 ~% ?* j. k# I2 l0 k
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附中文翻译：
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5 J6 W, v* |6 t% ^" e2 }" @《兵马俑》( M* L9 p0 c) g! q! G5 G
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作者、翻译：莫笑愚
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一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次
0 w: r( S8 z3 E3 ]一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士
% _) `6 x! a; w7 a# j5 j他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原
" b( W! t t: l$ o攀上了长城6 k/ a _* P5 ~* h' D W
结果却发现自己变成鬼魂8 v t: B* v: b( m) s8 y% G. m
仿佛草丛中无形的风影* Z/ H7 ]! X! A& K4 F9 J+ d# g
% W' R; E+ d8 f* E; h人们在午夜的寂静中
2 Z( ` V6 o* p6 W+ b% Z分不清这些生动的事物
( h, N2 l7 V) c/ {而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知' ^3 f! e; u p5 `9 c% h
老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗
( f! }; d2 K. N! j2 M' }我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样 |. t2 W' J. n4 `
行走或弹跳
, C' @0 R6 w# m; d6 M而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。" p4 Z z5 b N
/ k4 h: D: k% }2 i0 W- f4 R为什么不是老鼠，我说。
! \# J+ x. s* ^, |* p( J一英寸似乎相隔百万英里5 d' P) i: [/ M; @/ d
两个世界天差地别" c9 T$ B5 V; R; O' @8 F& e$ H
一些东西在我心中，我无法触及! T, ]: t" Z, m7 c* V
“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，: ^' z y* c3 ]- q( M+ A
“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的: [# Z* \( R# c3 K6 n
或真实的”
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) V; v; Y6 L/ w/ N* L8 @" J- e我活着，无法如众生行走
) b, t: {8 f/ R我周围的世界: {" L; v/ z. E5 v
是一小滴雨水，从鸽子的翅尖9 Y+ G/ d; u; m* x. {+ u4 W
滴落! a0 N7 u( I6 i/ |
时间成为一粒沙 ——
0 L$ \) U7 @" s. \! i1 T—— 这宇宙的唯一真理
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) k( r& g- C* D9 _我腰酸背痛0 f/ j/ n" \+ k4 t( _
无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片. E5 A- K* n5 T' \, H- ?
带进静默的潮汐 ——
: W4 D g8 C; w2 j$ X% P# E我无法触碰这坚固的阴影. L) ]) ?. V/ A3 k9 n" U* a
而我的门在开裂
# C7 B0 @& n; w9 `5 L我自身的边界在消失* X' V: ~4 I- |% x2 D
一些完全陌生的事物在重塑
# R C! ?+ A# `, W我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心* S& [2 }* H; ~0 k9 N+ |0 W$ ?
洒在破裂的地板上
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撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着+ c$ O: x2 O/ a. Y1 B8 d
我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内
7 J. H) n8 X, Y, I P( Y5 Z而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中
/ g6 x/ Y# ^6 \$ u; P. b* ~自由飞行——' }, g0 {( Z, i
爱或被爱都是量子状态- c8 f" K$ `; q W& r
—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
# ?' ]5 Y# L: m3 O: i当兵马俑的士兵8 L1 B% h9 g9 f- U) S. u
行走，在迅疾的风中。
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2015-9-6于北京 |
发表于 2015-9-7 08:05
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