作者:查尔斯.布考斯基8 O5 n& L9 [( o( B" f: X$ X0 n
翻译:莫笑愚2 [ e$ z6 I$ W) e6 C& ^
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《自杀的孩子》
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* c7 \' H; h9 H4 [+ R我去了最糟的酒吧
( F" A) K! _* ]! W0 l指望在那儿) h. R( o. {- `7 D
被谋杀。
; M0 j" O5 E0 G& ~' g' K; {但我所能做的只是
! F, r b6 z' j* z. y再次将自己8 f9 ~$ @+ ^& C4 \* _& T; H: x; w
灌醉。
' d3 J+ B4 h( o7 s* h7 n7 I更糟的是,酒友们甚至
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9 Q; s3 @( }3 c) \" S, ?喜欢我了。
) k1 C: k6 [+ r* J我在那儿只想惹怒别人2 P$ X5 \/ e6 T
并被推入黑暗的
$ {: M: D9 I2 B' g/ F+ K深渊
9 G9 r* Z& V! ^1 X2 q5 y结果是我赢得了4 |, K, ?( t# D& e
免费饮品
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某个
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病床上,6 w/ \/ }( @. _4 P6 f( q
全身插满了
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6 Y# G' p* x0 C8 ]5 }, H( _3 J为了活着,他拼命挣扎
) V& B7 B/ {3 m, i2 r3 H" [8 c+ h使出了吃奶的劲。9 d4 d! X6 r9 v* K7 v
无人会助我
( V! f3 r a! m* A死亡3 c. ]/ Z2 [* A: X; [
当我们畅饮* u1 n- C) {( v4 T. ^
达旦,
8 i2 @* ^6 a/ r' L8 V当第二天
1 j( e: b( V+ ^等着我 A3 }* x& x) O9 ?" P$ J. f* f
用它的钢钳,
% p% t; c' y1 j0 P: @5 n用它臭气熏天的( L6 L! P; B6 W$ ?. n8 U8 [
匿名,
( b# G6 P" g) m- |它暧昧的
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死亡并非总是' S. _% _9 l+ ]* _
如期而至% n- E: x* g, o- B) o
当你呼唤
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哪怕你从一个- Q/ H( ~$ @3 \+ M
闪光的! J% b8 o8 r8 r
城堡$ d, Z2 F" z% Q" G+ |
或者从一艘远洋游轮
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最好(或最差)
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唤它。
8 M. j! |$ H, \9 c: R$ g( \8 P如此无礼
- ]# \" `) l* J. f3 w' P只会令众神
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问我:我已3 C: T2 V7 g! Z* S
72岁了。, G" {9 ^, H0 C) C ~- v
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《致拿走我诗歌的荡妇》
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% L1 u7 i& W! \0 G0 w n有人说该让悔恨远离
9 w5 G/ I6 h+ }, t1 [1 ]" h5 X诗歌,9 D: S# c! ?! v; |. {. A
该抽象,这貌似有理,
1 ^3 o" p4 N3 j但是耶稣啊;
% _4 A2 Z# U) @2 l9 i2 ]) N12首诗歌失踪了我连尸首也找不到而你还拿走了
! V# u' @- t4 J- l2 s我的* ^6 d4 N: A8 }2 w4 F; g' T+ S
油画,我最好的墨宝; 这令我窒息;; B; M& H x4 w. r' Z
难道你也像她们一样要榨干我的皮?
: `5 k' B) W+ e( F) G( R9 n为何不拿走我的现金?她们通常会从一个醉醺醺
# m# k5 L4 M( Y$ Y1 V( ~# h昏睡在角落的醉鬼裤兜里拿走金钱; t7 A$ n. k( c& Z9 |5 e! P
下次就拿走我的左臂或者一张50元的钞票% a1 J1 V4 D8 I$ X( d0 z
但不要拿走我的诗歌:: A* y% k. @7 V
我并非莎士比亚+ j2 Q- c$ D. ?
但有时候就是' t# P1 M( y* c4 {
再也不会有诗歌,抽象或其它;
K" U7 e3 K8 r4 B2 X) R但钱和荡妇和醉鬼却总是遍地皆是+ v, ~( G! S' b! l( r( Q# h
直至最后一枚炸弹,3 e" y' w6 A5 U$ C7 E
但正如上帝所说,
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我知道我在何处造就了许多诗人9 n8 I! l; [' G8 B
而并非众多
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9 ?* H2 s+ w3 \7 h附英文原文:! T; k7 c9 I9 G" m n- ^! f! f
& Q$ N' R C7 A" iTHE SUICIDE KID
# q1 U- l) v/ c& S4 v k, Fby Charles Bukowski
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6 h* L& j3 n; s: e8 K9 O4 q5 f. WI went to the worst of bars
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killed.
2 f* p. j& U# Y$ M6 s s$ m7 s% hbut all I could do was to& G4 s1 b2 z2 u
get drunk% Y2 h) E: X+ j
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worse, the bar patrons even
2 c1 |( E/ H/ ^: E" R2 Oended up) h! ^ H4 {- {7 G. T# e/ c. I
liking me.
9 t) S" p X) |2 V* z: `; Cthere I was trying to get
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and I ended up with
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while somewhere else
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bed,
, @5 g$ c' H, j# l e, @# btubes sticking out all over6 D# X9 W! C1 _' E: \
him
7 b# D* Z2 B4 f5 v! Z/ B! bas he fought like hell
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nobody would help me
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+ q. y7 z, p8 [" A# ?* }0 \3 Cthe drinks kept2 z: g; o( \$ x
coming,7 F% c6 o& i$ W" \: T
as the next day
: m/ ^' l% D2 W" Y3 o3 Awaited for me
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5 Y: ^5 w4 [- \3 {$ w9 [4 S! x, Fits stinking% x" f& _; A6 A6 f6 @4 m
anonymity,
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death doesn’t always/ k( }5 Z: D1 x7 w6 `3 u- `* U
come running8 T* l$ p7 D7 J1 F. }/ J" E
when you call; b& H; S8 I, a* ^
it,
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call it" _$ L$ Q9 h: }" D: A- b
from a shining
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or from an ocean liner% B; M' B* R) o
or from the best bar
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worst).9 d/ K" B& i) S6 `6 t: [
such impertinence
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hesitate and
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ask me: I’m& C3 w8 Y/ r7 x4 b
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: C* P ^/ w7 ]$ o; W& e ATO THE WHORE WHO TOOK MY POEMS
1 p) w$ Q4 ^8 p% u: ?" }BY CHARLES BUKOWSKI
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9 V9 j2 `( }' n5 Xsome say we should keep personal remorse from the
: u- p! V- b% B5 o1 Kpoem,
! l: I- x. H$ lstay abstract, and there is some reason in this,
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twelve poems gone and I don't keep carbons and you have
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- y$ r" ]# N! Z2 S. J( H: l. ^2 {paintings too, my best ones; it's stifling;
$ \4 r* y7 j) H( G2 ^& v# Yare you trying to crush me out like the rest of them?. |, L* m7 G1 A9 U b/ T
why didn't you take my money? they usually do9 L" ?- V' E/ {& Y, W! T5 f
from the sleeping drunken pants sick in the corner.
2 C+ l! a9 e6 w- @0 xnext time take my left arm or a fifty
! v# l3 d; n: a/ G2 X1 n7 Abut not my poems:; A8 x J& l# m/ w
I'm not Shakespeare
\1 I" d+ x b, z% ebut sometime simply
3 N6 ^- z! A7 ^' c, J' U) Gthere won't be any more, abstract or otherwise;- b9 u( F" U4 L' s7 Y( H9 \9 ^
there'll always be money and whores and drunkards$ h1 a* n" B" ?
down to the last bomb,
- |: o( E. K* b# U8 Z& Hbut as God said,
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& i* O9 h6 q/ `+ v2 s6 Z& [I see where I have made plenty of poets% I' q8 W: R# O9 M$ ~
but not so very much
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