Terra cotta soldiers
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' X9 Q/ k; C9 F4 e: S7 L& @by J. Loh
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- G' M& L: O K* B; H# da dead cat bounced once or twice8 {' ^& U, p8 ~- X
a dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty/ u- e6 f8 k# E8 M: x8 n& j: H
who dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
; D1 z2 n4 G. y+ S7 B3 H& Lnorthern wasteland 4 A6 K* P! \) m7 s6 s. |/ N
and only found himself turned into a ghost in the bushes
! ?5 i: s. K! R6 n3 n! Zlike a shapeless shadow of wind5 f. y6 R6 A2 U: W/ z9 c
- S7 }1 b* c- Z( e0 a. vsuch vivid affairs one could not tell: d2 h1 p8 B; X# J2 \
in the midnight silence
% Q5 o6 |8 P4 j8 X: Qand I knew nothing about the basement2 T/ T- q2 @7 }+ u, ~( h
where rats and cockroaches fought among themselves
4 }1 Z' P7 B. s* Y+ O" o+ s# `$ y* GI was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around
: e# D' \& \6 Bas a black swan or a white cat
9 O& B- m3 k) z' h; c: e+ O7 ewhile you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches. [; Y Y% @6 Z. \; ?7 [- X
5 _6 e8 z& p$ v6 pWhy not rats, I asked.
- o; ^% Y. y0 k7 bone inch seemed one million miles away W/ i, l3 [$ {6 U7 l' L
with two worlds apart3 p5 m5 ^, F& v" n& A/ u8 V
there was something inside me I couldn't reach% o9 u$ u* a6 E3 ^1 u4 G, ?
"tear me into pieces", you said,
% Z5 e/ [3 \% M K. x"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see
- G2 F' U$ @4 y2 T' |9 q! yin pieces of me"* C3 C8 n# \ p4 O; a2 ~/ `
2 z2 o+ ?; D/ l$ g iI was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being
) K4 ]* ^' V" p* L: o" Kthe world surrounding me
! O9 q+ ^- E4 wwas a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down
+ b& p& C% v, ifrom a pigeon's wing-tip4 h: R0 \6 N# C3 [: c7 V' [
time turned into a grain of sand --
9 t9 W; A6 U5 w6 t( F3 V5 n8 B-- the sole truth of the universe& {5 V& G6 R: u, L# O) d
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with sore and pain in my back( G& X+ w+ d: t3 ^9 O# l6 b1 }
I couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me
0 J: q) O( l7 \ i9 S4 J1 L1 H$ kto the silent tides
& H( D- s: c8 X3 l+ iI couldn't touch the shades of solidity
' X8 v" b( r# m& i9 e9 Twhile my door was cracking --" x. q6 h. u9 w& c) L7 r& h
the boundary of myself was disappearing$ V+ ~' p# O% _/ l! h, |" X6 w# x
something completely foreign was reshaping
$ E4 t! h- H5 FI felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me
, j# E+ s3 Q( zand shed on the cracked floor / z9 | u2 @. r7 S6 C) ^
when curtains were still tightly shut
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Gapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain C0 ]8 A5 b8 Z( \! p2 M' v
I felt the dead man moving out of my body8 u" o V2 _2 M: R) ^
and the grain of sand was free-flying5 j n' W% ^" G' X% G" t
in the pouring rain
1 A3 A9 \# Z' I3 E/ zlove or being loved was a state of quantum ( t! @' N) @* z. D+ S* Y' ~
-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --/ o8 c7 y& {. C0 T v# b3 q
when a terra cotta soldier was walking " |0 o+ _# a. t1 p( W
in the mighty wind.
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$ t1 o! m+ F; ^" K5 Y' JSept. 6, 2015 written in BJ
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/ i5 d$ p6 n5 p* h j; F9 v3 ?, |附中文翻译：8 N) O8 J; A$ k [+ C/ s+ ?
9 X/ D" c5 ^% ~1 O《兵马俑》! P' `8 f# p( C# i7 G
3 }/ _- R4 i8 ^ b7 o4 h- Z作者、翻译：莫笑愚9 _! r& _$ g/ ?2 Z6 `- A* {/ S
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一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次) T& d1 q \+ C6 G! [( z4 A) F
一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士9 ]+ b" z& p* Y( d
他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原
0 p2 b' ]5 J- e1 j4 b- G& e攀上了长城0 z3 j" B) J V3 F0 v p
结果却发现自己变成鬼魂9 l4 j5 A) z: g. g
仿佛草丛中无形的风影, D0 X9 D. a d
% K8 D. @2 q" k8 F8 K* [1 [0 u人们在午夜的寂静中
. O- |1 T( Q2 E. n分不清这些生动的事物) ] V$ v9 r. i( O$ v1 f5 W# M( o
而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知8 o! }$ W' D2 @! A
老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗. Y3 c) S. C7 N% J$ J7 J O' q+ Y
我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样
% l }# l* V; i* E( L行走或弹跳
# A6 o! ?4 b: H7 B: {而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。6 t5 q6 {* Z& H/ n8 Z1 T% {
9 h& p6 w! L1 `' f6 W为什么不是老鼠，我说。
( {0 l* p( ?3 c% c A, t. `一英寸似乎相隔百万英里# E5 {* A/ d5 Z8 \$ P
两个世界天差地别
; ?, Y8 u5 _, I V一些东西在我心中，我无法触及
1 S/ I" _( W/ U; }“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，
5 j1 x! ]$ m2 S6 O“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的6 N. d+ x1 _1 t* z7 O" `9 d/ S
或真实的”
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$ e( w1 R) K0 G/ X+ t我活着，无法如众生行走% Z6 L: e t8 y( }. F8 |6 ~
我周围的世界
6 M: ^- w+ a6 I是一小滴雨水，从鸽子的翅尖
6 S* _; I& W0 o. w) ]滴落4 g# \- {0 b+ }$ O. s" [8 C+ H
时间成为一粒沙 ——* ^9 S2 H& g, x) Z2 Y! M( F
—— 这宇宙的唯一真理
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. ^ V6 H( @( r3 B我腰酸背痛0 F) M4 B+ ?2 Q4 M
无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片5 k( M+ h) r& r4 y$ l" }: S
带进静默的潮汐 ——' h2 }; K1 W* O4 H, \8 a0 u* F
我无法触碰这坚固的阴影4 }, _- |* v* N- e% c( t4 K i
而我的门在开裂
5 e6 \4 J# X; E: s1 c# C我自身的边界在消失
( E# m% S, r. C- p: r1 }* E; U一些完全陌生的事物在重塑
' s9 Y! x: j- K2 k5 z' Q我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心; _- A! j! c# k/ c' } W4 G
洒在破裂的地板上' h& U+ X! h' i9 m' {7 i
当窗帘依然紧闭& M/ B: T: I" D/ U- m: r7 d
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撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着/ [& H" ?5 U A: _; D, {
我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内. f; V1 }/ G) s1 D; |, k5 y
而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中/ V+ }# ? g# {5 k
自由飞行——
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—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——
( q9 _9 f) R% }当兵马俑的士兵
% x& \- k6 i n9 G0 b行走，在迅疾的风中。
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) ^/ Q3 ]' E" G7 {9 v4 a0 X l2015-9-6于北京 |
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