Terra cotta soldiers
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a dead cat bounced once or twice1 L2 C& b4 ~# O" Q! M; S
a dead man walked as a soldier from Qin dynasty
( D8 [6 F2 S6 u9 Y: b6 rwho dreamed about climbing the Great Wall across the vast
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like a shapeless shadow of wind0 O4 U% s9 a4 U/ I% T/ o
& X% N- f+ F' f% C- nsuch vivid affairs one could not tell
9 s4 J$ n7 y1 r" T3 Fin the midnight silence
( y0 I* A, ~1 b- a$ Aand I knew nothing about the basement
' ^1 Q+ J7 p( ~4 ?) H/ r8 B0 pwhere rats and cockroaches fought among themselves
: s8 I+ K* g3 \7 y/ I' G6 aI was alive, but couldn't walk nor bounce around
. f9 G6 }1 Z6 L% [4 n( d; [as a black swan or a white cat
* d' ^1 H: _+ W, L& K5 H B4 cwhile you said, come join the soldiers of the cockroaches.7 S# x+ e8 I6 v# D; t. E; p) P
9 K: _% G" m& }1 D/ O8 ZWhy not rats, I asked.
* Z# W. J* e, l) c: }one inch seemed one million miles away& ^$ t6 P$ y( F% [4 T8 C0 Z }/ e
with two worlds apart7 a1 b2 F& `9 s: ^6 ^/ {
there was something inside me I couldn't reach y" D7 p, D6 ~6 j7 j$ A
"tear me into pieces", you said,/ b; x! T1 R! o- B4 s! Q
"nothing is authentic or genuine as you will see 5 v" C/ o3 }8 Q& Z
in pieces of me"
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) \/ o- M% B) L5 uI was alive, but couldn't walk as a living being! U5 |1 t5 L4 ? ~* ^( a3 t$ P! R* E
the world surrounding me
+ [" k% E) R+ y. Y7 K* ?* `was a tiny drop of the rain, dripping down * M' l9 E/ {7 H+ ^: U. h
from a pigeon's wing-tip0 `' t c' G& q: [8 \9 Z
time turned into a grain of sand --+ N' N6 a) r$ \, H6 c7 D/ }
-- the sole truth of the universe
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with sore and pain in my back
2 A, K) `* H5 C o$ |I couldn't go too far from my flesh nor bring the true pieces of me 1 [; V$ c; K" H, z8 t
to the silent tides5 ?% ]" ]4 t. M2 H. ^" `3 o2 l6 J
I couldn't touch the shades of solidity
. g$ ]: m' Y: Dwhile my door was cracking --
' l& q; a7 s6 e! b0 D% vthe boundary of myself was disappearing" d- x( J" c* S5 l. a
something completely foreign was reshaping
. J0 m8 l9 v6 l iI felt the dim light of the rainy day came inside me
' y$ U2 M* }1 Tand shed on the cracked floor
- }3 K- m! E2 ~6 r/ Zwhen curtains were still tightly shut
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Gapping, sobbing, and yelling in pain, O: _/ `9 E* f0 T
I felt the dead man moving out of my body* q: K% S/ ^ |) }: ?7 y @) l! q/ M
and the grain of sand was free-flying2 ^- t8 O" {4 i% u
in the pouring rain
' B/ k! C+ p; Tlove or being loved was a state of quantum * F; n7 i" A5 U8 b5 i1 g5 q
-- rats or cockroaches didn't matter --) G9 R6 P7 @: ^' z- X- S
when a terra cotta soldier was walking . W) j, t; ^$ e* z
in the mighty wind.: q0 T. Z! F0 N+ K
# y' f7 y- E% e# g7 w$ {Sept. 6, 2015 written in BJ
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附中文翻译：
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J0 J4 y6 P! C2 ?$ y《兵马俑》( b5 {' i( N& K& `1 X) K
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作者、翻译：莫笑愚
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一只死猫回光返照了一次或两次
1 Q7 {9 f. h) q一个死去的人行走，仿佛来自秦朝的兵士# f) V) m4 p1 y+ E) ^
他梦见自己跨越北方广袤的荒原! J) }( \0 r& r& @4 z2 u$ e |
攀上了长城
9 [: l) K' X: y! S4 [, l% P" i1 K结果却发现自己变成鬼魂
1 l! ^/ p/ {5 Y2 _% i$ f( R5 a仿佛草丛中无形的风影
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( i1 t) [0 i; s! v/ P N6 v人们在午夜的寂静中/ g% W. ?+ p! \* n& \' Z! ~
分不清这些生动的事物: g; j+ g# v) ^% V) T7 k
而我对地下室里发生的一切也一无所知
: h1 ~1 Q, k6 w) v) ]老鼠和蟑螂在那里战斗 q# C J X* R7 T# C9 O
我活着，却不能像黑天鹅或白猫那样! m9 m& A- [7 K, e4 B
行走或弹跳5 Y1 t0 R1 C. |7 Z3 K4 O. e3 z& l
而你说，来吧，加入蟑螂的战斗群。
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0 z6 T- _5 O/ @& O. w为什么不是老鼠，我说。
, G- K8 P- Q& I9 D一英寸似乎相隔百万英里
! s$ z: a# K, a+ }, R两个世界天差地别
5 v( V$ D( A: |$ o一些东西在我心中，我无法触及
0 w9 m& O( r8 s5 {, R3 x0 {' H“将我撕成碎片吧”，你对我说，
: t4 L: \% P1 A1 `2 R“在碎裂的我中，没有什么是纯正的% u* h ]( C2 c; }7 z: ]* [, ^
或真实的”3 j& o$ s0 h2 g; @& {
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我活着，无法如众生行走
, O4 _" Z# G1 Y* P1 E我周围的世界
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滴落
# D' ?! G# y$ ^8 j$ r j时间成为一粒沙 ——
1 O- [, F) M+ u* M! C$ g—— 这宇宙的唯一真理
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我腰酸背痛
) ?* T6 Z* I [. O7 k, b% p无法离开自身的肉体走得太远，也不能将真实的我的碎片$ V3 c1 o N7 _$ l$ }
带进静默的潮汐 ——, U1 I: L* F' ~9 s- s; A: T
我无法触碰这坚固的阴影# N+ b* k! r U+ R- f
而我的门在开裂; S7 D! P7 _* J8 T: C
我自身的边界在消失
5 P% q, P* F2 x% o( G一些完全陌生的事物在重塑& W$ i& F' {/ E7 l( v* B
我感到昏暗的灯光在雨天进入我的内心
4 v2 j* w, a& C2 E( U洒在破裂的地板上$ C! `; o% @' z% X
当窗帘依然紧闭. n1 t; X7 B! t3 x
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撕裂着，哭泣着，带着疼痛呼号着0 k% i; B8 h9 U* y% h7 }
我感到这死去的人正在移出我的体内% g' R$ c i( V7 ?5 E) a- t
而细小的沙粒在瓢泼大雨中2 U) `5 r, g" _; a' @8 D9 t& i
自由飞行——
0 ` N: `! j& f. {9 a; a, D5 k爱或被爱都是量子状态
9 I2 q" |; F# S5 Y {/ W+ J3 ]0 ?—— 老鼠或蟑螂都不重要 ——' b9 P. U' G: R1 ~. B8 j5 Y* X; N
当兵马俑的士兵
+ |7 y( _4 C* J: {& ^8 d4 u行走，在迅疾的风中。
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